想要静静离开 你却从背后拉着我的手
你并没有用力 怎么我那么痛
我想要说没有关系我还爱你 却挤不出一丝力气
是我错过什么记忆 才从幸福跳到这里
最怕自己从今以后 什么都不相信
当初若勇敢爱了你
多勇敢才能原谅你

我为什么那么爱你 爱到什么都说可以
发誓绝不做的事情 现在做得不想放弃
爱情到底让人脆弱 还是让人坚定
我用尽最后的力气
从头到尾都没有哭泣

好喜欢这一段...有似曾相识之感
写词的人..都有让人产生共鸣的思想...牵着读者进入不同的世界
让烦躁...苦闷的人生....增添许多想象空间....
那一种空间....可以是七彩缤纷....也可能比真实世界更加黯淡..谨剩黑白二色...

未尝试过谈恋爱的他们....
都是比较聪明的....
怎么说...

他们多半会选择进入那七彩缤纷..美得像天堂的空间....
抱着"恋爱大过天"那天真到不得了的态度...去想象...去幻想...为原本单纯无邪的世界...增添了一条七彩的彩虹...构成更漂亮的梦幻情景...
他们的生活....没有太多的忧虑..
听歌..只是梅上添花...
没有爱情...也能投入地工作...
他们都知道亲情的重要性...

相反地

谈恋爱...失恋....复原....
再堕入情网......再失恋.....再复原......

思想都被影响了...
选择听的歌曲...多半是...灰色情歌....
把自己锁藏起来....
歌曲开始播放...............
大脑自然而然跟着播放一幕一幕印象深刻的画面....
加上歌词添加的想象空间....
顿时....天空也变得灰灰地.....
记忆把自己困在痛不欲生的世界...
歌曲伤心欲绝的音调...配上那似曾相识的歌词....
哇....听者会有"不死都无用"的心理....甘又甘大个仔啦....

完完全全把亲人都抛于脑后....

歌词的影响....不容忽视....

"YAU MINZ GIA??"


many of them asked me bout the real definition for this funny term..
first of all...this word is introduced by a funny fren of mine..sze..

yau minz..
dengan bangganya...its a cantonese term which means....ada muka..very the bangga..

gia..
hokkien..which means ..kids...

in conclusion..the whole thing is defined as....the bangga kids..in another word...they are the ppl who rejected us..(as in me..sze..jo---the desperate 3D Angels)

to be continued...

so long..since the last time i got up this early.....

i woke up at 7am.
and waited for few min...finally sze' message came....
confirmed w her..and asked her to wake jo up.

jo was up oso..
everyone was so excited.hahaa...wonderin how could i get up automatically at 7....n slept at 3 last nite....

it was 7 10....and was waiting for kevin's phone call..
halfway waiting...i tot of smsin him...and let him know tat i was up....
the phone rang b4 i could send the ms...
his voice sounded so sleepy ahahaa...

sze waited for me downstairs....and finally jo was here..
we arrived at polo ground around 8 10..
so many ppl were there...but the mojority is...ermm..middle age ah pek tho..
hahaaa.....

we walked 2 big rounds....and started jogging...

after few rounds...we stopped....
we were chattin away...gossiping...tellin stories ....and making fun of the others....
had so much of fun!~!!!~!!!!!

cant wait to see the others ....
weizhi n jiahui wil be back by tonite~!!!!!!!

yo....after so long...
finally we are here again...to gossip...and to recall our old old memoriessss....

back~!!!

i m back~!!!ppl keep asking..."why never update your blog???"

"ehhh.....no time lerr..."

actually.....what have i been doing all this while?????
i thought i hav been sitting in front of the laptop 24/7???

wednesday, early in the morning, i packed my things and prepared to leave for kl at anytime.
waited for so long....finally...my dearest bro came home..
we left at 11.45a.m.
guess wat??i arrived at subang jaya at 1.40p.m.
within that 2 hours..we stopped by at two petrol stations.
din notice any cameras or speed traps throughout the journey....too bad...

i remember there was once...my cousin was driving her car..and we all(4 siblings altogether)...were chatting away in the car.....

when we were bout to reach a junction....my cousin accelerated all of a sudden....
but the light gonna turn red anytime~!?

"SAY CHEESSSSEEEEEEE........AND POSEEEEEE~~!!!!!!"my cousin said tat, juz right at the moment where the flash of the camera came into eye sight....

we all laughed our heads off......

anyway, thanks so much ya...to all my lovely frens .....thanks for providing accomodation...interesting programmes.....wonderful night talks...

the first day itself....quek came n picked us up....
we went to midvalley...and managed to find sumthin nice for jes ...
after tat .... quek n yoke kiet brought me to WEI SIK GAI...a very large hawker centre.
we ordered so much of food...haahaa...ate so much!~!~!!!!

the next day, i called up jes..
she was so surprised...and she cancelled all her plans...since we had planned a surprise party for her...

waited for kevin for 2 hours..
while waiting....we played the organ and had fun jamming together....

finally...kevin arrived.

"wow~~!!!kevin looks so different ~~~"i was recalling the image i used to hav in mind...
his hair is very bright...and he was wearing my favourite colour....and gave me a friendly grin at the doorstep....very impressive~!long lost fren werttt....

hahaa..
we went to pyramid....since we had very little time....
on the way....he was very nervous...n of course...stil as polite as usual.

we had so much of fun.... n memorable moments.

that nite, was the first and only night i clubbed in kl.
we went to Zouk.,
jes brought us there....
and her frens brought us in.....although we were not allowed to enter supposingly....(i m stil in my sweet 19+)
adam and two of her guys frens are regular visitors of that happening place...

it was really happening....and i met chin joo there~!!!!

i stayed there for one hour.....
n we left for cyberjaya...

din really slep for the whole night...and back in jes' place at 8.30am

after taking shower...i slept for two hours....
and went out for lunch w jes...at a famous mamak "stall"

then, went all the way to serdang...to meet up w did thien...
but he was late for 1 n half hours....he had sumthin urgent to do ...n made me waited for so long..
but its ok...:)

we left kl at 4 sumthin....arrived in front of my house at 6pm..

we were recalling old memories...and discussing bout sum interesting topics along the journey...
at times...he was too into the conversation...
n the car accelerated til 155km/h

thanks ya did thien...had a pleasant ride...heeehee

tis is one of the most memorable trip i ever had.

thankz to all my wonderful frens~!!!muacks muacksss~!!!!
waiyip....thanks lar..haiyo..thanks for bringin me around in IPOH...hahaaa...

saturday morning, 9.30am.

my phone vibrated for few times.....i rushed up from the bed...grabbed my phone..

"are u up?or stil sleeping??"

"errrr.......half half ler..."followed by a wicked laugh....

"aiyo....wat a pig we have here.....wei,today wanna go for a movie???"

"huh??"..

"initial d?"

"ummh..hmm..nop.not th forth time.."

"war of the worlds?"

"nono..watched d.."

"amitylville??haven watched leh??"

"watched jor lar@#@#"

"fantastic 4~!dun tell me that u watched this as well~!!"

"yah...last nite....suen lar...no movies that i haven watched larr.."

"good...very good...ok den...we go y2k tonight~!no objection..u ask your frens to join...i dun care~!if u dare to reject again, dun ever call me your senior ~!!!"

"duuuu...u...du....duuu....."

he hung up the phone.....and i fell backwards..continue with my sound sleep....

aiks....stupid sunny...i typed few sms and send it out..
yah...its a good idea tho...since i wanna try clubbing in ipoh....
hopefully waiyip.suzanne and jo can make it:>
jojo~!!~!~!wish u a speedy recovery~!!!!!

first of all...thanks wai yip for giving the idea...for the third blog of the day.

i have a fren..who is stil single and availabe...
this fren ... showers his baby with great affection...
hug her every night without fail...
put her to sleep and spend time with her when its a rainy day....because he knows that she is scared of thunders...
but sad to say that...his baby...is an ugly dog...

contrastingly,

i have another fren...who is in a relationship..
this fren...is always thinkin of advantages of being single...
always thinking of flirting....dating gals....


do all the guys behave the same???
when they own something..they will take it for granted...and never appreciate it..
someday...when they realize that ...the "something" has gone.....they wil regrettt...

but i am pretty sure that....not all guys behave like this...
majority does...

guys can fall in love with gals...
but fall deeper in love with ..... football....cars....computer games.....(either one)
they can break up with their gfs....but they will never forget bout their football finals...F1 races...or DOTA.....

i have a fren...who is in a relationship now..
she is demanding...
she demands everything...
from homemade breakfast made by the bf....to supper delivery for her family members at 12am...
no football when she is having off day....stop DOTAing when she calls....no sleeping late in the lovely sunday morning....

bcuz of the love he has for her..... he is willing to sacrifice...although its unreasonable sometimes..

but this kind of guys.....are one in a million...hardly can find them around u...

this kind of relationship...obviously....its not going to be a lasting one...

tolerance~!key to a successful relationship....
when your husband/wife says he/she has a headache, do not give an aspirin.
What he/she needs is attention and tender loving care.


but moral of the story for today is...
love yourself
learn to take care of yourself.You are all that you have..
you are your own best friend, always.

1.35am

came back from blu cafe..
yum char with sze..waiyip..jo..and suzanne..had fun talkin with them.
most of the time listening to waiyip....he was really well-prepared tonight.

tonight ...
feeling kinda moody...
whole day was playing the song "yi lu xiang bei -jay chou"
fall deeply in love with this song after watching Initial D.
the lyrics is so meaningful.
后视镜里的世界 越来越远的道别
你转身向背 侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追 竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊 是我错失的机会
你站的方位 跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退 你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北 离开有你的季节
你说你好累 已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹 过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧 我伤你几回

后视镜里的世界 越来越远的道别
你转身向背 侧脸还是很美
我用眼光去追 竟听见你的泪

在车窗外面排徊 是我错失的机会
你站的方位 跟我中间隔着泪
街景一直在后退 你的崩溃在窗外零碎

我一路向北 离开有你的季节
你说你好累 已无法再爱上谁
风在山路吹 过往的画面全都是我不对
细数惭愧 我伤你几回

我一路向北 离开有你的季节
方向盘周围 回转着我的后悔
我加速超越 却甩不掉紧紧跟随的伤悲
细数惭愧 我伤你几回
停止狼狈 就让错纯粹

--good lyrics..really luv it so much~!

its 4pm, mom and ling still out.
chatted with yen ling for almost two hours...we were recalling all the childhood memories.

when we were young, all the gals (me, my sis, yenling,meileng,huiling) used to stick together all the time...playing all sorts of games...
hahaa...you will never know how naughty the girls could be...and how creative..imaginative..we were...in a better word...hahaa...

i m very glad that i was born with an extraordinary good memory when comes to remembering stuff like tis....

there was a drama series ...the story was a about a family..living in a small village..and they work day and night to earn a living.

and after watching the series of drama...what we did was....

we started to create a farm at home...and at the same time..we started to pluck out the grass ...at one side of the garden..and poured alot of water into the soil.

"why is the water kept disappearing after i pour it onto the ground....???"

"maybe there isn't enough of water yet...lets put more~!!!"

AND THEN.....
FINALLY...............

the soil...was no longer with the name soil...
it is now called....the MUD......

we were so happy with the results~!!!after carrying so many pails of water....
but one thing i muz mention it here...our team work was never doubtful...we were passing pails of water from one end of the house...to the other end of the house...the scene is stil clearly running in my mind now..it was so funny....
everyone was with a very serious look...as if the house was caught in fire or sumthin...

ok...wat we did to the mud was...we used the grass which we plucked it out earlier on....
as plants....and plant it back...

there born the so-called rice paddy field...

we were delighted...jumping up n down seeing the "rice paddy"...so proud of ourselves.

next, we plucked alot of plants from the garden....and started feeding the rabbits , our dog and the birds with leaves.....very the smart....

we were imagining that we were living in a very poor village....
without working....we would never survive....
everyone was so busy "planting"...."harvesting".....

we were really very hardworking family.....

really miss the fun that we had last time...although it was ages ago........everyone of us stil remember all this so well....

that is not the end of the story yet...

after some time...we were bored with the same thing again and again...
we realized something new.....
when ling accidentally poured one whole pail of water onto the path which is made of tiles...
the pathway along the garden became so slippery.....
i took out my slippers....and tried sliding up and down....
wow~!!!so fun!!!so exciting~!!!!(i was always the founder)

and then...
everyone started playing with thisss....s..s..s.s....
but at the same time....everyone has to take turns to pour water along the pathway...to make sure that it is slippery enough ....OMG~~~

those are only part of the stories......there are so many more...

to be continued.....

USM??NUS???NUT???

"which one to choose?"

"ermmm...let my analyse it for u, if u choose USM, you will not hav to face so much of stress and you will get to mix with more malaysians..who are usually easier to mix with compared to the singapreans...and its nearer to ipoh...on the other hand, if NUS or NUT bcum the choice...u will get to know more bout other cultures..n expose to more foreigners ...and i guess the standard there would be higher compared to malaysia uni..."

"yah...but if i really choose one of the singapore uni....i will hav to stay there for at least 8 years.."

"so long??"

"yah....or maybe more than tat..if i wanna continue staying there...."

"ooo...."

"choose for me, i will listen to your advice..."

"ships are safe in harbour....but they are not meant for that purpose..."


i guess ... i didnt give the wrong advice...
today i read a new book...with the title THE WINNER'S EDGE.
it says , aim high, stay with the eagle, do not stay with the worms of life. The air is better up there. The view is clearer. It is less crowded up there.

yah...very true..why bother staying on the ground ..leading a normal life which doesnt belong to you when you yourself know it that you are more than a worm....

thought without action is thought without success.....if you have been dreaming of being outstanding and excel in the field where u r standing....and at the same time, you have the capabilities...then...just go ahead~!!!although life might be hard and unbearable at times...stress and hectic life might torture u to the max.....people around you might betray you for certain benifits...your daily life becomes extremely competitive....your mind might be turning...working 24/7....STUDY is the only word in your mind at the moment u open your eyes when you get up from sleep.....jolting up in the middle of the night..by some nightmares...where u dreamt of sum questions...which u couldnt figure out the answers...and start crawling out of the bed...searching for the answers from the text books which are lying next to you...(u left it there before u fell asleep )............................................................................................................................................................

after all these hardship...there comes the future life which all this while you have been dreaming for~!!!

there is no rose without thorns.You have to go past them before you get the flower.

it is difficulties that show what people are.....by Epictetus
Do not grieve over hardship. It makes the man.

belief in yourself.That is what counts , not what others think you can or cannot do.Your are bigger than you think, you are tougher than you think.
i alwiz bear in mind.....this is the principle of my life...without this...i wonder how could i ever survive all by myself in moscow...

cultural shock is never a small problem for any foreigners in moscow...Russia...which once was a communist country.
ppl are stil not that open-minded ... language barrier...is one of the main prob as well..

"if you cant speak russian....there is no way that you could survive in Russia."

no doubt that the Russians can understand and they can speak well in english..
the main idea is...they refuse to use other languages besides their native language.
they are very proud of their own language.

besides that, communication with the other foreigners...especially with the chinese from china...is also one of the causes of headache...

i remember the first night i arrived at moscow...and was accomadated ...in a room in hostel of Pushkin Institute.
i was put into a room...on 6th floor .(13th floor is meant for malaysians)
the first thing that came across my mind was...
wat a lousy place i've got?~!
sum russian gals were squading at a corner... smoking ....
and not only tat..
worse things are not yet being mentioned.

i knocked at the door...according to the slip i was holding...my room number was 626.
a chinese gal with a friendly smile her face..opened the door..
she is very helpful...she helped me to carry in my luggages.
the room was ok...everythin looks fine..
wallpaper was pink in colour..n there r two units in one room..i was arranged into the smaller room which is meant for two person.

"your roommate is on a vacation...she is at her boyfriend's place now."
the chinese gal told me that ... in mandarin...which i could hardly get all the words that she spoke to me.
there were altogether four chinese gals stayin in the room.all of them are from Her Nan,China.
they are very friendly.......

after putting down my stuff, i wanted to bathe..after hours of travelling..
here comes to scary stories .......

"come...tis is the toilet...'
the toilet is in the room itself....i looked at it, really couldnt accept it at first... i am definitely a super fussy gal when comes to bathrooms n toilets..tat was one of the aspects that i had considered before choosing this hostel. According to my agent, tis hostel is one of the best hostels in Russia....at that very moment i saw the toilet...i absolutely disagree with wat he had told me......

"how am i going to survive with toilet like tis??!!!i don;t even wanna spend a second in that stupid toilet~!!!!" the question kept echoing in my mind after i got back to my room to get my stuff to bathe.....(actually it wasnt tat bad...it wasnt stinking or wat...but i juz felt so uncomfortable with it...)

i took a deep breathe....walked in and locked up the door.

after hanging the clothes that i m going to wear at the hooks ....i turned ...and was about to take off my clothes....

"AWHHHH.....~!!!!!" i nearly yelled out....
MY GOODNESSSSSSS......

guess wat i saw in the bathtub?????????

there were FISHES SWIMMING IN THERE~!!!!!!!
the fish is bout the size of a tissue box~!!!!! how could they rare fishes in the stupid bathtub?!

i rushed out the toilet...and went into their room.....

they apologized and helped me to catch those fishes...put them into a pail...

after they left....i started cleaning the bathtub....so grosss.s.........OMG....

after that ...day by day..i had new surprises everyday...
while cleaning the windows edge.....found onion plants next to the window....some chili plants as well....

"the CHINESE........................."

they really planted everythin in the room....you name it ...and they have it...

but it was really an unique and special experience tho...
you will not get to experience all tis in other countries i guess...

throughout my pre-med year....
i was studying on my bed...n never once at the table.
the table was used for the desktop purpose and a big microwave....

imagine that huh?microwave next to a desktop....
smart fella..

i carpetted the room....and bought nice bed sheet and pillow case and a new blanket...
the room looked so much better after tat...

few weeks later...my roommate was back.....
with her boyfriend.............

"is he going to stay here???"
i was thinkin bout tis.....

tat day itself...my china fren suggested me not to go back to my own room to sleep....til the day he leaves....

i gave my fren a grin on my face.....

tat nite....i spent whole nite in sum frens' room....they offered me to play cards in their room....(they are my roommate's close frens)

from nite til dawn....
i forced myself to stay up til 6am.....playing stupid cards .....

finally....the sky getting bright....i dragged my body...from 8th floor to 6th floor....knocked at the door.....she opened the doo.r....i grabbed my toothbrush...and washed up.....
fortunately...classes were not so hectic ....
if not..i guess i would had died long ago......

timer function is so important...for ppl like us... 

self taken pic...first rule :.the one with the longest hand muz hold the camera 

kid ," these kor kor n jie jie are crazy....force me to take pic with them....sob sob.." 

bid weizhen's farewell (shh...jean...dun make noise)

11.35a.m.
i switched on the mp3 song in dictionary.....recalling the scene..where me n jean lying on sofa..that was the first few days after i arrived...it was my last summer holidays.
we were having so much of fun...joking..making fun of others..n singing this song...

we were so happy...the joy was so great..
nothin could upset us at tat very moment...we were really enjoying n treasuring the moments with each other's accompany..
ppl around could feel the joy ..the happiness ...delightedness......
which were radiated like waves when we burst into laughter...from time to time..

miss those feelings so much!~!~!

did thien was back on sat...we went to jusco n out for lunch....
again i left my phone at home...was so worried throughout tat few hours...couldnt wait to go home n grab my phone...

he sent me home to get it...
yah i was right there were 3 messages and 2 miss calls..
i quickily answered the message ....
but din know tat it was already kinda late....haaha ...

at night...sis played with my hair...she curled it up...it looks nice tho..

9.40pm.
weizhen came n picked me up.he kept apologizing for being late...tis was his first time being unpunctual..he had dinner with his family b4 tat..
we rushed to jusco to meet up with the others...i was kind of worried at first....i m not really close to the others...

we found the parking within seconds...and hurried to the cinema
fortunately they were stil on the way to jusco ..from salem corner.

the movie was exciting n scary...he was pretty scared.....
hahaa

after tat we went to ipoh garden east..it was raining...but everythin was fine...
both of us were sitting nearest to the edge ...especially weizhen's seat...it was wet...

we left the place at 1 am.....the others were stil there...busy chit-chating...
we went round n round ....driving slowly on the road....it was stil raining.
we din really talk...but every word that we uttered out...was things that we would hardly talk bout it face to face...
he stopped by at my place...mom was stil awake....she was watching tv...n we joined in...

after sum time...sis came down from the room...
and we planned to go out on the next day..for breakfast.
couldnt sleep well ...after tat....

early in the morning....ling woke me up....my eyes could hardly open....
after waking me up....she called him up...but no one answered...duh...we slept at 3.30am...n she expected us to get up at 8....

finally wei hou helped her to wake him up...

we went to greentown corner ....for breakfast..
n right after tat...we went to pologround..
juz to take pictures....we were laughing all the way...as we used to insult ppl who go pologround for nothing...kakaa...
all the pic r so funny...we walked a big round...stopping by taking pic...doin all the funny stuff...
we took pic with a kid...he was so reluctant to take with us...thank God ..he didn;t cry..haaha.a...

juz wanna wish him n the others....all the best ya~!!!
and take very good care of urselves~!!!!
meet u guys again in the coming hols~!!!

watching tv n blogging at the same time..

thought tonite gonna be another boring night...

i spent my day time...watching tv..online chatting with kevin...fetching sis...and eating...
so sick of it tho...

i thought i could settle the genting problem by today...but again i m so disappointed w myself...

sms waiyip in the evening....
tot of goin yum char with him tonight....but so sorry...hehe...
anyway...he wasnt angry w me...thanks ya...i know u chill out man...

went out with weizhen,yudan and kian hwat.
we had long talk at moven peak ....so long since the last time we chatted like tat....really miss the feelings of ...the feelings tat i actually belonged to sumwhere else.....and i m not alone...aiks...ipoh is getting more n more pathetic..close frens are leaving soon...gonna miss every single one of them so much~!!!!!!

tonite the feelings are juz so special...maybe its bcuz everyone gonna split soon...
fortunately ...we stil hav yudan guarding the base(ipoh) wahahaha...

tonite keng wai sms me...but so sorry...stil haven reloaded...couldnt reply u...aiks...pls forgiv...and one more thing...err....i think his mum saw me...but i was too shy to say hi...aisk...again..sorry ya..altho i know he wont mind at all~!!!!kekee....right yuk dei??

cant wait for the next reunion party~!!!~!!!!~!!!!!!

hey frens~!!!jung xin ga and those fan yan~!!!i miss you guys~!~!!~!!!!
kekee.....altho we all r seperated so far apart....but we will alwiz be there for each other ya..
oopss...i mean i wil alwiz be there for u guys yaa...not so sure bout u all ler..
juz hoping that we all wil stay the same...if not....change for a better....but not worse ya...
tonite...i wish i could produce a drug....that can prolong the memories ...in another word....promote formation of S100b protein...for consodilation...(conversion of short term memory to long term memory)......not only for the sake of studies...but...at the same time....keepin those treasured moments in mind....
obviously...tis is an easy job for most of the gals on earth....but definitely not easy at all for guys...

guys juz tend to forget everythin tat had taken place...ermm....and they giv reasons like....they do not turn back...but look forward....(according to mr.waiyip ...if not mistaken)
lame reason..~~~

eyes hurting...
typing in the dark since sis is sleeping soundly now...
stil chattin with suanming...we r havin very interesting topic
stil wondering..
how could a guy like him can ever exist ... n he does...he is juz so funny
how could GOd gave him two brains instead of one..
that leads him into the extraimaginative world...
i guess he needs prayers...lets juz bow our heads n pray for our fren...suan ming...

had a long chat with kevin...were discussing bout the coming genting trip..with frens...headache....
and tonite...had so much of flash backs...
i didnt realize tat...things are stil so clearly carved in mind....

but so glad that frens arE always there for me throughout my ups and downs.
thanks guys...you guys are so wonderful~!!~!~!!!

after the super long talk with kevin and suan ming...
haahaa....we actuallly came out with a sentence of the day...

anyway....who knows how is our future gonna take place???
only God knows....so again....
i will juz say....commit everythin into His hand...
and pray hard for tat...He is so good...for He wil answer your sincere prayers...and give you the desires in your heart..

maybe the main prob that occurs is ....ppl r getting more n more complicated...

its 4.30am....and i m stil awake...

afraid of falling asleep.....
afraid of lying on the bed...with an active mind.....which keeps recalling stuff....
afraid of dreaming bout sumthin that has to do with the conversation juz now....

but i experienced b4...i dreamt of sumthin which i didnt wanna dream of...and i managed to "escape" from the dream...n jolted up ...n den fell asleep again..and started with a new dream....

i wish i could come out with a drug in the future..
which enables human beings...to control our reticular formation and hypothalamus...which is responsible of sending signals to our cerebral cortex and occipital lobe as well for dream vision...

by den...we will be able to choose the dreams that we wanna have at tat particular night....
juz like choosing movies from the dvd rack....

cool huh?

maybe choosing dreams for the person sleepin next to u...would be an better idea...or ....connect her or his brain with ur own brain...with sumkind of cable which is capable for signal transduction....
and thusss.s...s......
there r no more secretsssssss.....between you guyss...

this drug wil definitely has a huge market ....among the married couples..kekeke....

ok...its time to go to bed.....

and sleep as much as i wan.....maybe ..i mean...if possible...
i wanna try sleeping continuously for...ermm..24 hours??!!??
or maybe above???
since i really have nothing better to do..........

jean and I.... 

today is not my day~~~

let me jot down wat had taken place early in the morning...

2am.-shut down laptop...carried everythin upstairs..washed up and jumped onto my bed...
hid under the blanket...enter my sweet sweet slumberland...
3.30am-had nightmare...in the dream...i was having very bad stomachache...and was admitted into hospital...the next thing that i realized was.....i was having a sever stomachache in reality...
OMG....the pain was killing me....diarrhea n vomitted...my eyes were hardly opened...my mind was cursing the food that i had eaten before that....
4am.- while i was opening my room door...steppin into my room...a shadow came into my sight...stood straight in front of me...it was ling...couldn't bother much...as i knew that she was suffering the same thing as well....
before i could fall asleep again...the pain hit me again....the feelings were like...stomach being tearing apart...ouch....
i walked all the way downstairs....trying to search for sum medication....
the next thing i know was.....my body was getting strenghtless and vision getting blur....

i made myself walk to the living room....and the very second i could touch the sofa....i lost my conciousness..............

6.30am-mommy woke me up...she looked so worried...

Praise the Lord...thank God for answering my prayer....i m feeling so much better now...
and getting bored....
i wanna go out~!!!!!!!!!

i typed a long post in chinese..n wanted it to be post up here so much, but unfortunately..after the click ..the page that appeared next was....blog not found.geramnya~!!

i spent so much of time..typing character by character...and after so long...finally finished the last line of the post..
why must that happen to the very first post that i typed in chinese~~~i will not be typing any again for the time being.

tonight supposed to hang out with hui shyn n sunny...but come to think bout it..i can imagine how wil things take place later...so i guess its a good idea to cancel it off...

scanned thru the blog that i used to hav it while i was with terence...
i used to write so much in that blog...and sounded having so much of fun typing every single thing out...but clearly in my mind..i know how was i feeling that time...

actually i guess all of that has already come to an end...where i think..he will no longer log in any of our blogs...n no longer realize that the testimonials that i wrote for him r no longer existing in his testi list...i am so sorry for doing that but i guess...thats the best way to end it up...no point leaving foot prints ..its not like we r gonna trace up stuff like tat anyway..

i miss the dayz having so many frens around in ipoh...and busy hanging out every night...
the most important thing is that>...i cant even figure out a person to call out....for karaoke or breakfast either...now its my turn to taste the loneliness............
OMG~!I m not tat pathetic ya~!!!!Never say lonely...Never lose to loneliness....Single but happy>>
attention pls..attention to all the SINGLESs.s.s....
single is definitely not equalized to desperate..
single is definitely not equalized to lonely...

single is a ROMANCE in its own way...
and single....is FUN....for our very age....

sounded like......trying to convince myself with all that?~!?NO WAY..
anyway...guys are never "trustable"...tis is the conclusion...
and for tis sake....gals...never dream of falling in love if you are stil not fallen yet....never watch too much of drama series which stupidly display every single scene with romance as the main message(especially taiwanese series...they usually suxx....)

gals...its time to learn to be smart enough...to defend ...to protect yourself mentally....from those heartless guysss...especially to those who never ever care or concern bout the gals' feelings...

tho i admit that there are sum bad apples which ruin the reputation of the gals popularity...i truly believe that....gals are alwiz the vulnerable victims...in relationship stuff...

guys~!cant u guys juz stop that irritating acts...and start treasuring gals before every single one of them turning into lesbians~!

just came back from kl yesterday
was tiring but very comfortable journey...
came back together with eu wen n his roomie-phil.Phil is alwiz bullied by eu wen.made him walk all the way down to checkout for the correct platform..
eu wen is stil as naughty as usual....

tues morning,started packing up my stuff at 11...accidentally took too many tops to kl...but fortunately i wasnt the one carrying my bag most of the time.

left ipoh at 3.30pm.loon drove there..along the journey...i was readin the book "Heaven is so real~!" Dalvin was right..we need an open mind to read it..
loon n i rarely had a long conversation..we were basically askin n answering questions.

reached cyber ria at six sumthin.the journey was shortened by the superb driving skill of my bro...every turnin..including those sharp ones, we were passing them in an unbelievable speed (for me)...at an perfect ankle.enjoyed the journey so much.i wish i can have another ride in the future.

after reaching at cyber ria...loon helped me to carry my bag to weizhi's place.tat nite itself,they brought me out to sunway pyramid...got to know sum nice frens who r now studyin in mmu as well...mun lin..june..sum guys.they r friendly n nice..n we watched the movie Initial D at sunway cinema.tat movie is so impressive and i plan to watch it again in ipoh.really like it so much!~!!~!!!

after tat,we went out yumchar at puchong n reached back at hostel..at bout 1.30am.met up with kenyi at one of the playgrounds in cyber ria.
nice to meet him in person..he is talkative and nice to talk to..not much different from the one tat i had expected in my mind before meetin him...

tat nite,chatted with weizhi til 3 sumthin in the morning...and slept.

got up at nine on the next day..and went to attend class with them.
the class was so boring...since i know nothin bout programming and database and stuff...was trying my very best to understand it..but gave up at the end..

jes n dehsze came to pick me up at lunch time.we took ktm to kl central n had lunch at kfc.we even bought caps ..as a donation for an orphanage.after tat we took monorail to sg wang...and shopped there for couple hours...bought two tops from fos.

kenyi sms me ,asking me out for a movie after tat...at time square..
n we ended up walking to time square...
after meetin up with kenyi...jes n dehsze left.
ken yi n i went upstairs...had a look at the indoor theme park n a short talk ...got our drinks n popcorns ....watched the movie..Wars of the world..
was quite interesting...but dun really like it..

after the movie..we went to Waterlily cafe for dinner..had a plate of grilled steak.yummy!
we were chatting away...had fun insulting each other.

the next day..i slept til 11am...and met up with quek at 12.40pm.

we went to 1 utama n had lunch.
while wewere enterin the restaurant "wong kok kai"..a familiar face appeared infront of us...the waiter n i stunt there for a few sec...it was Nic~!

was so shocked~!but glad to see him again after half a year.

n den we went to AnW to hav a glass of rootbeer.very nice~!after God knows how many years since the last time i drank tis...

at nite we went to tanjung2...met up with jimmy n yoke kiet..n melvin..
we had dinner there...first time eating nasi kandar in my life!its a muz to jot tis down.
we had a pretty long talk...
sat there for 4 hours~!drank 3 cups of teh tarik...the table was ful of glasses...we really hav pretty large bladders...kaka..

tat nite me n jes chatted til 4 am.

the next morning we went to mc'ds for branch...and den jimmy sent me all the way to masjid jamek by lrt.

eu wen helped me out by carrying my heavy bag...al the way to pudu raya..he was perspiring so much...
felt bad...but glad tat he was there to help me out...thanks eu wen~!!!

had so much of fun at kl~!!~!i m plannin to go there again ...

guys,thanks alot for everythin!~!!u guys r great~!!!