父母的孩子们；孩子们的父母

孩子诞生时，婴儿呱呱落地，
父母在兴奋的同时却难免担心孩子的将来
孩子踏出了他的第一步， 心想：跌倒还真痛；
父母拍着手，心想：孩子长大得真快
孩子哭了， 心想：为何不抱抱我呢？；
父母邹着眉头，心想：孩子我好累了
孩子开心地收到第一份生日礼物， 心想 ：我会好好保护这份礼物，
父母微笑着，心想：不久又贪新厌久了。。
孩子把玩具丢得满地都是，心想：快逃，妈妈来了！;
父母气急败坏地，摇着头把家里整理一番
孩子无心向学，心想：把功课藏起来，他们就不懂了；
父母烦恼地思索，心想：孩子怎么变坏了？
孩子功课赶不来，把美术功课推给了父母亲；
父母累坏了，却不忍让孩子熬夜
孩子想逃课，心想：装病不就得了吗？；
父母一眼识穿，心想：八岁小孩的演技，骗得了我吗？
当孩子真正长大了，一心只想往外面的世界跑
可怜做父母亲的却只能默默的付出。。忍受着寂寞。。接受孩子已长大的事实
孩子遇到挫折，心想：家还是最温暖的。。父母亲除了担心，还是担心
孩子希望父母亲能够享受晚年福，父母亲却总认为孩子终究是孩子。。永远长不大
相反地，孩子总忘了细心观察父母已渐渐衰老了
世上没有长不大的孩子，更没有不为孩子而操心的父母
但是却没有不会老的父母，只有忘了为父母而操心的孩子

its saturday~~~

today is a happening day.
Indian gals are all dressed up ..walking up and down the corridor..its deepavali~jo's favourite celebration!~!
everyone is partying..including me and my roommies of course.
i wasn't so interested in parties,but since i am invited i think i should just attend it and quit being such an anti-social "bangga kia"!!

i got up kinda late in the afternoon.Lim called me at 2 pm sharp,he is a punctual person..the most punctual one in my dancing team.salute~~~

today is a great day for the indians but definitely not my day..
not to mention bout the punctuality of the other team members..some of them
couldnt even make it for the practice..ok fine..
i was given 30 min to practice in the common room..and some of them could actually drag another 20 min just to get out of their rooms..walk a few steps..take the lift *there r altogether 4 lifts in the hostel..i din even demand u guys to run down the stairs*...three floors down..took them that bloody 20 min to reach huh??

i think with that amount of time..i can even run back all the way from dean's office or slowly take my lunch and check out myself in the mirror..make up a bit .. browse through all the clothes i hav in my wardrobe.try out some..and pick the one that suits my mood ...

pissed off!

so we ended up practising for 20 min??~?yay..good...our rehearsal is tomorrow..

after practice..i rushed up and started discussing bout the formation with hao..
its not an easy job , a good formation can cause a dance to be impressive to the level of heaven ..and vice versa.
rush and rush and rush..
finally..i managed to make it at thineshes' place on time.

the party was fun.Jac's high school teachers so happened to come to moscow for hols..and those teachers are happening.Amazing how a middle-age lady can actually laugh out with a higher frequency and greater amplitude of wave than wendy does.
well , we did warn wendy bout this. .

i m feeling feverish again..weakness in every single strand of muscles i have..

but still..God doesnt really pity me..
i just received a sms from pris..they gonna quit the dance..
i am not a hot tempered person..but i m not feelingless..
screw it..dun even feel like talking bout it..

speaking of cutting hair ..

i cut my hair twice in two weeks.
Everyone approaches me telling me that.

"gals do not cut their hair just like that...there must be a reason for them to have the guts to do it."

ya..u guys are smart.
does hoping-to-have-similar-hairstyle like pretty heroin in dramas explain everything?

thinkin too much is always the main flaw of medical students.

i am posting some pic of mine after cutting my hair all by myself in front of my mirror.

oops..i think i have been hallucinating so much nowadays..so many thoughts came into my mind and i thought that i had already typed it out but the fact is tat none of them seems to be truly posted..

i am sort of typing in the dark..pls excuse me if there's any spelling mistakes.

hey, my legs aren't long enough..my short hair is bothering me so much ..(well, i did it myself..i deserve all the consequences)..my pimples on my face non-stop poppin out..weather is getting colder n colder (which is the reason why arsenal lost badly in the match).. top-ant cycle is comin soon.. n my hair is not getting any longer...

gals..as usual.

i realised somethin recently..i find it interesting..and i dun care ..u have to agree w me no matter wat..

i was showering in the dark..
it doesnt sound so interesting .. . .yet..

i was pissed off for having such a blessing that i could shower at the right time..right after the life-span of the useless bulb..which now i called it " little brighty"..

Showering in the dark..wasnt tat bad afterall..i could feel the unusual peace and calm overwhelming the whole bathroom..
somehow it reminds me of the way i used to fall in love with my previous exes.

i could finally experience blindness physically ..and found out bout my mentally blindness that i had been suffering from in the past..p/s i am totally recovered~!

shower on...damn it..freezing cold water..
on the hot water speedily without even having any transmission of impulses in my cerebral cortex...ended up pretty bad...burnt part of my skin and yelled out like a stupid idiot in the bathroom..
well i guess that indicates the surprises that we always get so excited bout when a relationship just started..

i stretched my arm..searching for the bottle of shampoo...

ish..my tactile tracts arent sensitive enough..
well..i still have olfactory tract(nerves corresponding to smell sensation) aiding me in searching for the right shampoo...
well..it took me forever to find the correct one..
yup..bingo..u got me right~!compromising..understanding..and tolerating ur partner..is never an easy job..it might ends up taking forever...
dun worry..everyone is born with different qualities of nerves..mine suck big time~

after all the troubles..here come the biggest one..
finding the right piece to put on..
i thought i was good ..well u tend to think that u guys make the most perfect couple on earth when u r mentally blinded by sweet talks ,roses..chocolates..romantic dinners..
i walked out of the bathroom(the peaceful bathroom for once)..lights along the corridor shrank my pupils real fast..the corridor was so bright that at the very moment..i felt that i was floating in heaven..the corridor was so much wider that i thought it was..the room looked so huge..everyone that came into my sight was radiating sunlight like the picture i have for my dearest Jesus..
hooo~~~
i walked along the corridor twice before getting into the toilet..
lookin into the mirror..GOsh..i was wearing my top inside-out..

yay..!i embarrassed myself badly along the corridor ~!!!

again, what we used to trust and believe when we were deeply in love..might not be that real and true after all...u might think that u are trusting the right person..believing in somethin which is true..but after being unblinded by the "lights of breaking-up"..u might realise that u are just like me..wearing ur top inside-out..chill out~i am not trying to hint u guys how unsuccessful were my previous relationships..i would just say that..this is what i have been observing..

Mooncake festival..2006

Again, i missed out this celebration with my dearest family members..

Saturday, 2 pm :

pris ," hey..wendy wanna have a party over here instead of joining the others in kahovkaya lerr..i think she is quite serious bout it.."

i flipped and scanned through my work on a capella...my brain was saturated with notes and melody of the song "Canon in D"...

"huh?!?really?but we are having dance practice at 4pm..and my a capella practice at 9pm..ermm..actually i don't mind..as long as i can finish all my work..oh no!i think i will hav oc meeting later.."

pris,"umm..its ok..i will stay over and help u out with the dishes ya?"

"good ..good.."..as i continued with my work..i couldn't really concentrate on composing the melody of tenor...

"argh..screw this..they dun even know how to read notes..i will just compose on the spot..."

we changed into dancing attires..and headed for dance practice..
wat an unlucky day..the common room was occupied and one of our dancing team members-the babi wendy..fell sick..

aiks..we ended up practicing in the room..

after the practice..we rushed to the market..bought some grapes and kitaiskii salad.(chinese cabbage)..
Pris refused to let me cook...

"go away joey..i can do it on my own...i don't wan my garlic gone missing later.."

"okok.i promised!~i will not throw the garlic away yay?hehee.."

"no no..you will!!"

"then..why not we just cook the vege without garlic???huh???it sounds yummy!"

"its a chinese dish!u dont call it chinese food when there is no garlic in it dear.."

frowned..ok..fine..i failed in convincing her ..

"ok then..cut it small..as small as u can...dun let me see it.chew it..and vomit it out later..."

everyone was busy with their own dish in the kitchen..one of the pots was vibrating wiolently as if its gonna burst anytime..
well, all the lips smacking dishes were really impressive.After four years in moscow, everyone's cookin skills are gradually improving..not bad..
we had chicken curry, chinese vege with garlic ;-/ , prawn sambal , eggs , plov(a kind of rice ,originated from Arab i guess.., sweet and sour chicken , chicken with onion ;-/ and some unknown dishes..
we even had small mooncakes which were brought by gary all the way from kahovs.
we did enjoy the party..thanks to wendy..
thanks for everythin.You guys rulez..thanks for the effort .. u guys are my best anti-depressant medication..

lets hav a look at the pic that we took last night..

the most boring lecture..radiology lecture..

the last pic that i took before my precious phone was stolen..
- endocrinology lecture hall
- recess time during therapy cycle..those are my rock stars classmates..

LOVE ME (ni de ai wo)
the way you make me feel so adored
wish you"d bring me candles when i feel lonely
dream that you were my husband-to-be
in 365 all i ask is one
name it after me
lalalala
wish you"d write my name on your favourite palm tree
look in my eyes,love is all you can see
night and day i dream that things are the way before will you love me more
where,when and why did you make me cry
loneliness has become another part of life
tears running strong and angels have gone
don"t how to carry on
baby i need you now
i need your arms to hold me tight tonight
please turn the lights down low
and feel my body glow whisper and flow
baby i need you now
i need your strength to hold me down tonight
the world is outof sight
cause you are all that i"ve been searching for t
he way you make me feel adored

Its a starting of a new cycle.

life isn't that good but its still bearable.
I have altogether four sub this month. Neurology, endocrinology, radiotherapy and dermatology.

Neurology is a tough sub.which requires tons of gyrus in the brain to move along in order to understand this subject..no wonder its called neurology.

today ..the same dramatic scene took place AGAIN..
someone stole my phone..
Ron n I tried chasing him..but he was too far away and we had to give up..
the lecture after tat was like taking forever to end..
my gastric was killing me hence i left the lecture hall during recess time and headed home..

i thought that i was good in managing my anger and depression..
after taking my lunch..i decided to call home..

mom : hello

cry baby : hello..mom?

mom : hello? anything?u seldom call at this hour..anythin went wrong?

cry baby : .. ..(my throat was stuck..shallow eyes filled w tears..trying to hold
back..)

mom : wats wrong??tell me..

cry baby : ..(stil couldnt utter a word)

mom : Tell me..hello?

cry baby : My phone was stolen this afternoon..(trembling voice)

mom : What?feeling sad??wats wrong??

cry baby : ya..have been kinda down these days..and my phone was snatched by an
idiotic russian..(in addition , he looks disgusting in his fitting,
semi-transparent dark outfit...and holding a leather bag which is
light brown in colour..typical russian look!)

mom : Huh?(shocked + upset) nevermind lar..dun think bout it anymore..

cry baby : sob..sob..(tearing non-stop..)

Never thought tat i could actually cry to my mom..at the age of 21..
I guess i must be really upset at that moment..
the exact second when the impulse of my mom's "hello" successfully transmitted to my temporal lobe..
the HOMESICK SYNDROME remission was really bad this time..its the exacerbation stage..

I m so thankful that my parents are always there for me when i need them.
I was so angry with myself for my easily fatiguibility...that had given a chance for the idiot to escape..i m such a loser..
besides, i feel so bad..it was mom's present for me..and i realy appreciated it so much..i really dun wanna get money from my parents for another phone..i m such a loser again..

thanks mommy..the long conversation has saved me from an insomnia night.
or maybe a few?

after talkin it out. . i really miss home so much!!!!

p/s - i am stil the happy-jolly joey..no worries