life sucks...

i am feeling damn confused..
i am not sure bout whats running in my mind....
i am just so confused.....

i just wrote jean a message and it sort of enlightens me....
i am leading a messy life over here...
miserable life....
i wish i could quit this and lead a better life....
but i guess its a bit too late...

symptoms of a patient who is having a crappy-life-disease:
- insomnia
- convulsion
- schizophrenia...which means mental illness
- no way of sitting still
- lack of concentration in everythin tat he or she does
- urge of harming his or her own health
- prefer to be alone
-basically just one exact word for all these.....
SICK!!!DARN SICK!~!!~!!!

sick of studying...sick of worrying...sick of getting sick....sick of listening the same songs over and over again...sick of reading the same page,the same sentence, the same word over n over again, sick of walking up n down the corridor, sick of every single thing which is so sickening...

i wonder if i could manage to survive til the coming summer hols....

90% out of 100% of a person's life...is filled w problems and depression...isn't it???
problems that take place in our lives are never-ending...
they make us grow...make us think...and make us wiser....
but the process is just so unbearable.

i miss them as much as you do jean....
i really miss them and love them so so much.