YA..tis blog is written for a purpose.
i luv coming back during my holidays.i luv the feelings of steppin into my house...feeling the warmth..observing the changes in my home sweet home...takin few deep breathes..letting go the sickening stress...enjoyin the freedom of stayin at my own house..my own room.lying on my own bed...setting free my mind....but m ost of all.....meeting up my dearest family members again~!!!especially the one i luv the most - my sissstarhh...
beginnings of every single hols of mine....are alwiz sweet n memorable...
jean n i went all around ipoh the first few days....that was the very first time b eing fetched by her...we had so much of fun...n tat weekend is the longest time we spent outside during the whole summer holidays......bcuz she has to sit for her exams v ery soon...
we hadn't spent much time together...shoppin around...
not even once ....we visit karaoke together during this long holidays...
most of the time...we were out together for one purpose- her dinner night(graduation night)preparation.
i refused to teach dancing at first...n rejected her straight after she suggested.
after few nights of thinking...i changed my mind.. bcuz i tot of spending more time with her instead of stayin at home...n at the same time...the thought pop into my mind...she has not much of time left once the preparation starts...in addition, when i was imagining how would the situation be if i were there to teach them dancing....i couldn't help smiling at myself ..."i m sure that this wil definitely be another sweet n funn y memory ....so...why not?"
ya ..i was right.
the teaching progress was really fun ...although its juz a short period of time.The laughters and sweet memories worth all the time that i'd spent on that dance.i blended into the their students' life once again...and got to know more bout her frens and gradually understand more bout my growing-up sis.
other than that, we seldom had time for each other...(i went out-station for a few times)..hehe...
the hols is goin to end soon...n tis is the first time we never had a chance to sing k togeher....tho had been talkin bout tat all the time in our conversation when i was back in moscow...
spending time together...is not tat essential since deep in my heart ...i know tat we r perfectly-bonded..strongly-bonded...eternally-bonded.nothin can be compared to our luvly relationship which i take it as the greatest gift that is given by my greatest Father...He luvs me so much for he sent me a good sister ... a younger yet more stable sis ....who guides me when i m confused...who "escort" me when i m too weak to walk alone ...who gives me the fullest support…who never failed cheerin me up…
that’s y it really hurts me when things happened to be tat way…
I dun mind being condemned by others..but not my own family members and my close frens.how do I define close frens?
Close frens are those who I treat them with all my heart…I wanna share everything with them…giv a hand when they are in trouble…cheer them up when they r depressed…being straight forward and never hide anything from them.
“do u think that u r more influential than I m?”
“ya…u r more influential…”its easy to type it out and answer the question above…but the feelings that I had at that very moment …were juz more than words could describe.
Its juz so painful to accept the fact that…I m being such a useless sis who cant even be compared to a guy who she knows for 4 years.ya…it was my fault…

My sight was getting blur…
I was trying so hard to hold back my tears which filled my eyes straight after I typed that phrase…
At tat moment I realized wats in ur mind…I switched off the laptop…
U shud und me even if the whole world misund me~!
U shud know the way I express morethan anyone do~!
Anyone on earth can stab me at the back…betray me…but not U~!

He thinks tat I m juz doin it for my own advantages…
But u urself shud know that from the very beginning…since the first time u did that…I already adviced u …I had tried…maybe I m juz so useless n poor in expressing myself…
Is that the reason why I deserved ignorance from u..and all the irritated responses?
Sumthin choked me…I couldn’t even speak to u…I hid myself back at the kit chen…n u ran upstairs…

I was told not to get too upset..since I’d already tried my best.
But I know tat I m not doin tat juz for the sake of doing my job as an elder sis.
I juz wanna s ee the old U…the one who study for urself…live for urself~!
U dun need the screen to motivate u…

I trust in u…whatever u’ve decided…juz go ahead…
U r mature enough to decide n to think for urself…I will stand right here n wish u all the best…dun get me wrong…I m alwiz ur refuge when u fall…n promise to be a better sis …

lets continue with the interesting topic...kakaa

our fren waiyip seems to be quite interested in tis topic.......Again...it proves that...guys do OI LENG...not only gals huh??~!!hahaaa...

lets talk bout NECK...
i guess....right now..the guys are opening their eyes wide....
wondering wat does the neck has to do with BAN LENG?
ppl tend to ignore this important part of the body....

juz imagine...a lady..who keeps a pretty , young face...fair n smooth skin...
but when zoom out a bit...
the neck which full of wrinkles...loosen skin ...came into sight...

neck plays a vital role in a person's appearance....especially for gals..
neck n shoulder together wil make the prettiest ...most attractive part of the body...when a bareshouldered top is put on...
the taiwanese even bliv tat...the sexiest part of the body...is the neck n the shoulder...

i do agree with this...

how to protect ur daily-exposed neck???

first of all....cleanse ur neck while u wash ur face....*didnt u notice that...the instruction at the back alwiz starts with this phrase..."Wash ur face n neck with XXX cleansing milk.....blablabla.."

pat it dry....apply moisturizer...juz exactly like wat u alwiz do to your face...

i have a small tip here...which wil helps u in keeping a wrinkles-free neck
-do not turn ur head too much....tats y..the pretty models do not hav expressions...n do not turn n look at u ...they... walk straight ....

today..i feel like discussing bout the topic....BAN LENG...which means..beautifying urself..ur outlook...from hair to toe...

nowadays..i bet not only gals who r interested in tis topic...but the guys do care alot as well..

first of all...
1. skin care

i never knew that skin care is that important...til the end of my second year course...
it was a nightmare~!no...i supposed...it IS a nightmare~!~!
THEY juz came all of a sudden....which made me screamed out early in the morning.....
THEY r scarier than a big monster....
THEY can catch more attention than any accessories u wear....no matter how attractive the accessories are....
THEY can even get greater n greater in size...each day....

scary huh??

THEY, the pimples, r the biggest nightmare i ever had back in moscow...
i never had so many pimples in my life b4....GOSH....it was so terrible that i couldnt help avoiding the stupid mirror at my study table.....

thanks to the stress that i was facing tat time.....
i tried many ways to get rid of them...but those ways juz didnt turn up good...

finally i m back in msia...n throughout the 2 months. amount of pimples on my face...was getting more n more at first....fortunately...now its under control...n hopefully...i wil fully recover asap.

i used to ignore the importance of skin care b4 tat...never really cared much..
the increment of cortisol production due to the stress tat i got from my studies....caused the growth of pimples...
at the same time...the intake of caffein..which promotes the effects of similar hormones(epinephrine)....
all these led to the same results...
new pimples growing everyday...without fail..

how to keep a fair...smooth...silky ..face..????
1. my fren suggested...DRINK MILK...not choco flavour...(if u dun wan to hav tat colour on ur face)....original flavour...so..if u wanna hav rosy cheeks...maybe..can try out the stawberry flavour...

2.DRINK ALOT ALOT OF WATERRR.....

3.PAMPER UR FACE WITH FACIAL MASK EVERYDAY.....honey mask..cucumber anti-bacterial mask....clay mask....

4.KEEP UR FACE CLEAN...wash it often...

5.TRY NOT TO USE SO MUCH OF MAKE UP...it is harmful to ur skin ...

6.PIMPLES PROB???GET SKINOREN FROM PHARMACIES NEARBY...trust me...it works!~but remember to spread it when u apply..the skin tone would be obvious

7.USE FACIAL PRODUCTS WHICH ARE SUITABLE FOR UR SKIN TYPE...skin products...once u hav used more than a year....shud try another brand...cuz the previous one wil hav no more effects after being used for quite sum time....n the new brand products wil improve ur skin in another way

8.CONSULT A BEAUTICIAN IF PROB CANT BE SOLVED.....they r the pro....ask them..n stop trying products one by one....end up in a mess...

9.MASSAGE UR FACE..tap the eye area with 3 fingers softly....do not rub it...to avoid skin loosening at tis area...tis area is the softest..massage the cheek bones area by rotating it..

10.USE COLD WATER TO WASH FACE INSTEAD OF HOT ONE...cold water has the firming effect...

to be continuedd....

wat r the guys thinking????(specially written for my dearest galgal gang)


lionel was asking....."if sumone really luvs u....he will never let u feel the insecureness..so do u think tat a guy who gives u this kind of feelings...actually luvs u?"

good question...but no answers given..bcuz i really hav no idea.

gals luv finding excuses for guys..
especially for those they luv..

when he doesnt reply sms....

she wil thinks tat..."he might hav low credit....or maybe..hp is switched to silent mode??or maybe...he left his phone at home??ermm...maybe he din see the message..or...i guess he might be busy right now..."

c'mon.....u know it deep inside ur heart....tat...how often does a guy leave his phone at home......guys dislike talkin on the phone for long...so..its quite impossible tat he wil hav low credit all the time....silent mode...make sense huh..(it bcums the most reasonable reason for guys...who make late reply)...busy...everyone is busy...a short reply like "sorry,i m busy...reply ya later.." wil do ....lor...

guys do not reply in time..
there r tons of reasons...
maybe dotaing???playin footbal???talkin craps with frens at the mamak??
playing hard to get???talkin to gals..inconvenient to reply???
watchin football match or F1??
clubbing???checkin out gals???etc etc etc...
dun tell me tat they might be playin piano.....or doin housework...or maybe feet massaging mommy at home...
trust me...guys nowadays...r never tat simple.~!!!

when a guy..didn't reply u...
GALS....pls ~!!!never surrender to tis~!

(i totally agree w my frens who commented tat i m egoistic)

wahaaahaaaa...

when a guy says I LUV U...

look into his eyes..and u can tell whether its a lie or not..
if so happen tat he is a good liar...with good eyes expression...

never fall into the trap tat easily ya...kaaka...
after u nodded ur head....things might be different...
soo....play hard to get til u r sure of his real feelings~!!!
but at the same time...be aware
never miss out the good chances.. the good guys...(extinct tho)

okok...hahaa...in case sum guys r reading tis..

good guys do exist...but rare

when a guy is willin to do anythin for u...
appreciate ...!~!~!
at the same time...do not accept him as a reward to this...if u r uncertain with ur own feelings.
this relationship might not turn into good...think twice!~

when a guy who u luv him more than he luvs u.....does sumthin for u..
even if its sumthin very very minor.....tat no one can actually realize it
u will take it so seriously ...n the world seems to be so wonderful the next second...
minor things can even turn into sumthin really big....which wil let ur heart be stolen ...forever~!

vice versa...if a guy...who luvs u..more than u do...
sacrifice everythin juz for u...

u r the world to him...
but he is only a sand out of the beach to u...

i guess..no matter how hard he tries..
he wil never get rid of being a tiny sand...

guys like tis...let me tell u...
gals wil never change their mind tat easily..
especially once she thinks tat u r her FOREVER FREN....

but there might be sum exceptions...
u can try if u r a risk taker!~

ppl used to think tat i m a palyful,...flirtatious gal...
sumbody juz told me tat..

i started my first rship when i was 18
and ended two rships by 19

it sounds playful maybe..

but i m sure tat i was serious...and wasnt playin at all..

after the last rship....i made a resolution..
STRICTLY NO RSHIP TIL MY CONVO DAY
kakaaaa...i did sumthin similar last time...b4 my spm..n i did it

tis kind of thinkin...is good tho...for ppl like me..especially..

at times...ppl tend to get lonely.....when they r singles...

LET ME TELL U WAT TO DO:

1. STUDY. sorry..i m juz a nerd when skool starts
2. MAKE URSELF BUSY.if u r a guy...go back to ur dota...i know u can dota day n nite..
if u r a gal...pamper urself with facial mask..hairtreatment....manicure...pedicure...or watever....make urself prettier....stay pretty for urself..and why not???

3.EAT.but never do tis too often...especially for gals...
gals hav all the reasons to eat...wahahaa...happy..sad...lonely...stress..(gonna bcum fatty den)

4.ITS MUSIC TIME~!play piano...guitar...or watever instrument...but..dun start with a sad song....u r gettin urself into troubles ya...

5.SHOPPING!~get ur wardrobe full with nice..n new stuff...ur accessories box full with cute n colourful accessories....dress up nicely...hav fun with creating newstyle of urs...leave the oldself.

6.FRENZZ ARE ALWIZ THERE FOR U.if ur frens are not there...i m sure tat i will be there for u!~

7.THINK FAR. make future plans for urself....think for urself...for ur family...

8.CALL UP UR PARENTS.tho sumtimes might hav difficulties of communicating(for sum teenagers larrr....not me...definitely)they r stil the one...who luv u the most...n muz be honoured the most...

9.COOK..but do not eat it....spend ur time in the kitchen(tho i wil not do tis...after skool reopen)and distribute the food...indirectly bringin joy n laughters to ppl around...provided..the food is good lar...of course

10.BLOG.release everythin in ur blog....

there r juz so many things tat we can do...
so why bother worrying bout...getting lonely??

i was asked to talk bout my klang trip ...one week ago...

KLANG
i studied bout this place in geography last time...
used to call it PELABUHAN KLANG
n used to imagine it...as a small place...right beside the sea...with a big jetty...
a famous place of m alaysia...
which has a super strategic location...

after visitting the place...
i found out sumthin very special..
in tis unique place called KLANG

maybe its bcuz of the frens tat i made in klang
bcuz of the ppl in klang

ppl in klang enjoy taking small n narrow roads..with tons of turning..n holes .
maybe tat kind of roads provide them the feelings of acting in the movie INITIAL D.

klang is famous of its bak kut teh....seafood...

tried them b4..not bad..
but frankly..i guess i miss my ipoh food more..waahaaha..

lets talk bout the first day in klang...
vee fetched us back...and i was brought to a room...
the room is comfortable...and very cosy...
i took a shower afterrr alonglong long long wait....was soooooooo desperate for a shower...
tat day was the most tiiring day....
a long story....gonna explain in another blog later...

after that shower...i felt sooooo much better...so much more delighted..
we went out n yum char w quek's frens.
met sum new frens..kevin n ke guang.
they r very funny n cute...they luv crackin jokes..
after tat...we decided to go karaoke...at 12 sumthin midnite...
after a long drive to sunway pyramid n a complex in klang...
we gave up.
noned of them was open..
we were kinda tired...went home...straight away dozed off after lying down...i was exhaustedddd....

slept soundly...

the room is sooo comfortable!~!!~!!!
thanks ya auntie..for preparing the room n everythin....

the next morning...i got up..n saw quek's sms...asking me to come out from the room once i m up.
i smiled ...n was wondering y is he so weird...i m not tat dumb larr...
we went out for bfast with his brother..had bak kut teh..not bad..

and then we decided to go sunway pyramid...guess wat...
i went ice skating......
after so longgggg.......
n i found out tat i couldnt skate anymore.....
dengan bangganya....i fell down four times....
which explain all the blue blacks on my legs...
but the experience is wonderful tho...

and then we tot of goin to taman pertanian..but lost our way...and we were kinda late...so we changed our mind...n went to tis famous chendol shop..
nice chendol~!!!
n den....went home...we were really tired...after the skating learning process
i could juz doze off in the car itself...
we watched tv at home...started discussing bout tis movie n tat...this actress..that singer...
time passed....we even had a talk w quek's dad on diseases...
on stroke...heart attack...insurance...coma...fire burnt...etc...

tat nite...we had dinner w the family...
dinner time...the brothers n sister were putting bets....n the conversation was sooo funny...
the family is so nice n friendly...

tat nite...we went out yum charr...at first we went to the stall which sells tong yuen...
slurp~!
met up w vee n kevin...n we headed to a cooler mamak stall..
finally we went to red box...waited for 15 min for a room...

we enjoyed singing soooo much~!!!n they can really sing~!!!!
kinda excited..n impressive...
really luv the feelings of singing k w them....

gonna go back to moscow soon...
14 days left

after the trip tat i 'd made to kl..genting n klang..
its time to prepare..n pack my stuff...
aiks.s..s....

lets talk bout the interesting trip~!

monday morning..
got up very early...with my eyes hardly opened...i checked everything...make sure i'd packed everythin in my list...n took a shower..
after tat...i walked to daddy's room...knocked knocked..."wake up ~!!!i m late~!!!"

he hurried down n fetched me to the bus station...
i carried my trolley bag out fr the car..n started walkin towards the bus station which i wasnt so familiar to ....

i felt tat ppl around was staring at me one kind...maybe i did look weird pullin a trolley bag...n look so strange to the place...

after browsing at few counters...i decided to take sri maju...which was the only choice actually..
8.30 am ..i was scanning everywhere for the bus...
the pager kept announcing sumthin which i couldnt get it ..my malay really suxx...big time..

was kinda worried at first...ppl around staring at me again..phew...i walked aroudn again n finally saw the car plate number which i had been searchin for..
boarded the bus..n i tot tats the end of story..

my seat was no.2
n seat no1 was supposed to be left empty..
but after sum time...an indian guy walked to the seat n sat down next to me...
he was saying tat..the bus is so empty tat he could change his seatin...
excuse me...since its so empty ..y r u sittin next to me..go n head for those empty seats...pls...

but i din utter out anythin....

juz showed a grin on my face...n took out my player..blast the music..

after bout 3 hours...i arrived at pudu bus station..
was kinda dizzy n felt like vomittin at first...maybe the air circulation in the bus wasnt tat good...

12 30 noon...
i took the bus to genting w my fren.s...
the journey was so much better...w companion..
after tat...we took cable car...so long since the last time i took cable car....it was quite enjoyable tho...

finally ...we arrived at first world hotel..
tat was my first time...stepping into tis hotel...pathetic rite?
impressive..colourful...n it looks very grand..
i like the place alot...
we checked in at the hotel...n rest in the room for awhile b4 we went out for our lunch..
tat day we din manage to do many things since we were kinda tired...
juz shopped around...n had a look at the place..i was so blur n felt kinda lost ...in that place..
but the trip to genting was really a nice..memorable..interesting...exciting...unforgettable..one..
i stayed there for bout 4 days..3 nights...it was the longest stay i ever had..
i watched two movies over there...7 swords n stealth.
frankly speaking ...i never knew tat 7 swords can be so much more interesting compared to the stupid movie called stealth wahahaa..maybe i m juz not the type who admire action movies.
the theme park was exciting...n really so surprised to find out tat ..i wasnt tat coward afterall..tho i stil dare not to try space shot n flying coaster....but i tried sum exciting rides.there is improvement compared to the last time i went to genting highlands..

' i dun wan to try tis..u guys go ahead..'
'no way....i will die upthere'
'it looks soooo dangerous....i m not going..'
'lets play motion master'

my excuses for the previous visit to theme park.

i kinda enjoyed the nights at genting..
the feelings r like....holidaying...with no worries...no stress.nothin...
i could juz walk around...shop around..n when i got tired...i could go back n rest at the comfortable hotel room...everythin was so perfectly arranged .... for ppl like me...who desperately needed a holiday wahaahaa....

to be continued....