USM??NUS???NUT???

"which one to choose?"

"ermmm...let my analyse it for u, if u choose USM, you will not hav to face so much of stress and you will get to mix with more malaysians..who are usually easier to mix with compared to the singapreans...and its nearer to ipoh...on the other hand, if NUS or NUT bcum the choice...u will get to know more bout other cultures..n expose to more foreigners ...and i guess the standard there would be higher compared to malaysia uni..."

"yah...but if i really choose one of the singapore uni....i will hav to stay there for at least 8 years.."

"so long??"

"yah....or maybe more than tat..if i wanna continue staying there...."

"ooo...."

"choose for me, i will listen to your advice..."

"ships are safe in harbour....but they are not meant for that purpose..."


i guess ... i didnt give the wrong advice...
today i read a new book...with the title THE WINNER'S EDGE.
it says , aim high, stay with the eagle, do not stay with the worms of life. The air is better up there. The view is clearer. It is less crowded up there.

yah...very true..why bother staying on the ground ..leading a normal life which doesnt belong to you when you yourself know it that you are more than a worm....

thought without action is thought without success.....if you have been dreaming of being outstanding and excel in the field where u r standing....and at the same time, you have the capabilities...then...just go ahead~!!!although life might be hard and unbearable at times...stress and hectic life might torture u to the max.....people around you might betray you for certain benifits...your daily life becomes extremely competitive....your mind might be turning...working 24/7....STUDY is the only word in your mind at the moment u open your eyes when you get up from sleep.....jolting up in the middle of the night..by some nightmares...where u dreamt of sum questions...which u couldnt figure out the answers...and start crawling out of the bed...searching for the answers from the text books which are lying next to you...(u left it there before u fell asleep )............................................................................................................................................................

after all these hardship...there comes the future life which all this while you have been dreaming for~!!!

there is no rose without thorns.You have to go past them before you get the flower.

it is difficulties that show what people are.....by Epictetus
Do not grieve over hardship. It makes the man.

belief in yourself.That is what counts , not what others think you can or cannot do.Your are bigger than you think, you are tougher than you think.
i alwiz bear in mind.....this is the principle of my life...without this...i wonder how could i ever survive all by myself in moscow...

cultural shock is never a small problem for any foreigners in moscow...Russia...which once was a communist country.
ppl are stil not that open-minded ... language barrier...is one of the main prob as well..

"if you cant speak russian....there is no way that you could survive in Russia."

no doubt that the Russians can understand and they can speak well in english..
the main idea is...they refuse to use other languages besides their native language.
they are very proud of their own language.

besides that, communication with the other foreigners...especially with the chinese from china...is also one of the causes of headache...

i remember the first night i arrived at moscow...and was accomadated ...in a room in hostel of Pushkin Institute.
i was put into a room...on 6th floor .(13th floor is meant for malaysians)
the first thing that came across my mind was...
wat a lousy place i've got?~!
sum russian gals were squading at a corner... smoking ....
and not only tat..
worse things are not yet being mentioned.

i knocked at the door...according to the slip i was holding...my room number was 626.
a chinese gal with a friendly smile her face..opened the door..
she is very helpful...she helped me to carry in my luggages.
the room was ok...everythin looks fine..
wallpaper was pink in colour..n there r two units in one room..i was arranged into the smaller room which is meant for two person.

"your roommate is on a vacation...she is at her boyfriend's place now."
the chinese gal told me that ... in mandarin...which i could hardly get all the words that she spoke to me.
there were altogether four chinese gals stayin in the room.all of them are from Her Nan,China.
they are very friendly.......

after putting down my stuff, i wanted to bathe..after hours of travelling..
here comes to scary stories .......

"come...tis is the toilet...'
the toilet is in the room itself....i looked at it, really couldnt accept it at first... i am definitely a super fussy gal when comes to bathrooms n toilets..tat was one of the aspects that i had considered before choosing this hostel. According to my agent, tis hostel is one of the best hostels in Russia....at that very moment i saw the toilet...i absolutely disagree with wat he had told me......

"how am i going to survive with toilet like tis??!!!i don;t even wanna spend a second in that stupid toilet~!!!!" the question kept echoing in my mind after i got back to my room to get my stuff to bathe.....(actually it wasnt tat bad...it wasnt stinking or wat...but i juz felt so uncomfortable with it...)

i took a deep breathe....walked in and locked up the door.

after hanging the clothes that i m going to wear at the hooks ....i turned ...and was about to take off my clothes....

"AWHHHH.....~!!!!!" i nearly yelled out....
MY GOODNESSSSSSS......

guess wat i saw in the bathtub?????????

there were FISHES SWIMMING IN THERE~!!!!!!!
the fish is bout the size of a tissue box~!!!!! how could they rare fishes in the stupid bathtub?!

i rushed out the toilet...and went into their room.....

they apologized and helped me to catch those fishes...put them into a pail...

after they left....i started cleaning the bathtub....so grosss.s.........OMG....

after that ...day by day..i had new surprises everyday...
while cleaning the windows edge.....found onion plants next to the window....some chili plants as well....

"the CHINESE........................."

they really planted everythin in the room....you name it ...and they have it...

but it was really an unique and special experience tho...
you will not get to experience all tis in other countries i guess...

throughout my pre-med year....
i was studying on my bed...n never once at the table.
the table was used for the desktop purpose and a big microwave....

imagine that huh?microwave next to a desktop....
smart fella..

i carpetted the room....and bought nice bed sheet and pillow case and a new blanket...
the room looked so much better after tat...

few weeks later...my roommate was back.....
with her boyfriend.............

"is he going to stay here???"
i was thinkin bout tis.....

tat day itself...my china fren suggested me not to go back to my own room to sleep....til the day he leaves....

i gave my fren a grin on my face.....

tat nite....i spent whole nite in sum frens' room....they offered me to play cards in their room....(they are my roommate's close frens)

from nite til dawn....
i forced myself to stay up til 6am.....playing stupid cards .....

finally....the sky getting bright....i dragged my body...from 8th floor to 6th floor....knocked at the door.....she opened the doo.r....i grabbed my toothbrush...and washed up.....
fortunately...classes were not so hectic ....
if not..i guess i would had died long ago......