frontal lobe disorder...

These few days i have been suffering badly from this headache which is localized in the region of frontal lobe..its killing me..pain irradiates from maxillary sinus all the way up to the cortex...
i guess that explains my weird behaviors and the reason i started blogging so frequently nowadays..

i feel sorry for the people around me...
i get so easily irritated..by small tiny things..
i started to hate people who talk to me..
i keep all my hatreds in me..i keep quiet...n i bury them in my dreams..
i sleep n sleep...reluctant to get out from my blanket..
i dun wan to meet anybody and start hating them for no reasons...

this morning, i received a call..it was Ron.

"hey gal, what did you get for your russian exam yesterday?"


"hmm..a 3 ..why?" (as the matter of fact, he knew it on the spot itself)

"do you feel like going there n MINTA her??"

"WHAT?!?FOR WHAT I WAN TO DO THAT TO MYSELF!?" *getting a bit grumpy*

"but if like this meaning we will lose the red diploma..."

"so?like i care...i wasn't even aiming for that anymore.."

"why so easily give up ...."

"alright, let me tell you what...no matter what happens..there is no way for me to lower my voice and ask for a better results..she is so bias and obviously even if we do that..it will not make a difference...so please spare some dignity for ourselves...if you really feel like doing something...just go to dean's office..tell them that we are not coming for the results..but to let u guys know that there is something like this going on in that bloody russian department..."

"well...hmm..alright..we shall think bout this after obs exam.."

"ok..bye."

DAMN SCREWED UP MOOD...
headache attacks again...
life...when can i get rid of all these man...leave me alone...i dun fucking care what results i gonna get anymore...after all what they have here is some fucking unfair system...you are not fucking standardized to judge me..

headache ...